Interesting Personality Test

social, outgoing, worry free, optimistic, upbeat, tough, likes large parties, makes friends easily, rarely irritated, open, enjoys leadership, trusting, dominant, thrill seeker, strong, does not like to be alone, assertive, mind over heart, confident, controlling, feels desirable, likes the spotlight, loves food, social chameleon, hard working, concerned about others

Heather made me do it!!! This was the result from a personality test that I took on similarminds.com. It pretty much hits me on the mark....Kind of freaky!!!

Ghosts of the past

I am going back to my old stomping grounds for a couple of weeks. I am excited but a little apprehensive at the same time. I miss my family, friends, and pets terribly and I can't wait to see them but....There's always a "but" with me. I left VB over 2 years ago and there were quite a few reasons why I did. I was a mess in all senses of the word by the time I made the decision to leave. I know I was making the right decision when I made it and when I look back on the last 2 years I was right. However, I always had a nagging feeling that maybe I was running away from certain people and issues. These would be my "ghosts." Then they were very real to me but now they have faded into ghosts. I think now I am able to deal with them or just put them at rest finally. I guess I will find out when I am there. I miss my loved ones too much to let my ghosts get in the way of enjoying my time there. I am not sure why I am even writing about this except for the reason that I need to vent out my apprehension now instead of later while I am there and possibly letting that ruin my time there. I am always babbling about something inocuous anyway so if you're reading this and think that I am a headcase....you are probably correct!!! As always....

Love and kisses,
Rosebud

White Party Surprise!!!

As some of you know, I went to Jersey this past weekend. For those of you that are just finding out now, please don't be too mad at me. My uncle wanted to surprise my family by flying me out for a White Party that they were throwing. Well, it worked and I am so glad that I could pull it off. I am tired and a little loopy from the short but very festive weekend but so worth it. Family is very important to me so it was great to see mostly everyone and party together the only way we know, which is BIG!!! The weather was great and it was great to see everyone dressed in white when it became dark. We had a steel drum band, DJ, a man hand rolling cigars, open bar, food to die for, and my aunt's surprise to everyone-belly dancers performing. See my family believes in the philosophy of "Go Big or Go Home" when it comes to throwing parties and they just keep getting bigger as the years go by. Then comes the After Party which is held in the jacuzzi and pool. The After Party is more for the younger generation and this is taking place around1AM and does not end until about 2AM. Of course, it's me and my friend Bobbie that are still up drinking wine until 7AM! I wonder if this should be of any concern? Yeah, so what if it is? You only live once so might as well have a good time doing it ; - )
Well, this is the update for everyone so I don't have repeat it over and over again....As always...

Love and kisses,
Rosebud

What is your definition of dating?

Now it has been known that the dinner conversations that are held in my household are anything but conventional and I will not deny that. However, I have to write about the dinner conversation that was held tonight. There were many different subjects that were brought up but this one in particular really peaked my interest. The definition of dating. Don't ask how it was brought up but it was. I think that dating has a different definiton to everyone. What I consider dating would be different to someone else's concept of dating. I consider dating as being with one person exclusively. Where someone else would consider it as my concept of "hanging out" with several different people. So I want to pose this question to the masses....What is your definition of dating?

As always...

Love and kisses,
Rosebud

The first step is to admit you have a problem....

Alright....so I have relationship commitment issues. See there, I have admitted it. Now where do I go from here? Probably counseling, I'm guessing. LOL. I can also laugh at myself so it can't be that bad. Or maybe I am just deluding myself into thinking it's not that bad. My family and my closest friends keep telling me that I am pretty bad. Nothing like always being brutally honest with the people that you love ; - ) Well, it's the only way I know so I am pretty immune to the honest criticisms of my so called single lifestyle by my loved ones!!
However, I am trying to change my ways. Really I am. It's just in a very, very turtle like slow manner. Can anyone really blame me for being a little gun shy when it comes to being involved in a committed relationship though? I mean I did spend about 7 years in a relationship that the only way to describe it is as pure HELL. Excuse my French but I don't really have any other adjectives to better describe it. I know, I know....get over it but unfortunately that left a good amount of scar tissue that will never go away.
I have to say though that I have had relationships since then but I can't say that they were conventional ones in other people's views. And yes, they were definitely not committed ones. But it did not mean I did not love these guys, they just were in my life at the wrong time or they just weren't the "commitment" type. And for some, they were Mr. Right Now and not Mr. Right.
Trust, I do believe in commitment. I just want it to be with the right person and not someone that I am settling for because they were there at the right time and place in my life.
Hmmm....It might also help if I could get over my fear of "first dates." ; - )

Love and kisses,
Rosebud

Back on track....

Momentary lapse of reality. That's what I had a case of. You ever have that one person in your life that is your Achille's heel? Well, I have one of them. He's my "what if?" person. Every time he comes back into my life now is the only time I have self doubt about my decisions that I have made over the last year and a half. Time and distance has been making it easier for me to recoup from his "follow-up" contacts with me. However, just as much as he is my weakness he has been my strength in a lot of ways. So for that I am grateful for him being in my life.
So folks I am back on track. Well, as much as someone like me can be ; - )
On a different note: I have a question for the masses. Why do we make relationships so much harder than they really are? I know its a loaded question but after observing many relationships around me and of course my own, I think if most people knew that answer there would be a lot less drama. Just something to ponder.....

Love and Kisses,
Rosebud

Time Out...

I think everyone needs a little "time out" every once in awhile. I know I need one desperately. It's not really because of anyone or any one thing in particular why I need to take the "time out." Maybe that's it....I am on such sensory overload that I can't pick out what that one person or thing could be that is ultimately the reason for my confused state at the moment. All I know is that I am cranky more so than I want to be and it has nothing to do with hormones. Ahhh, damn it's probably just me that's getting on my own nerves ; - )

Hmmm...now that's a concept to ponder on....