Don't Make Plans To Move Out of the Country Just Yet...

For all of those out there that are upset and even extremely terrified that Obama won and now believe that our Country is going to hell in a handbasket, take a chill pill. I understand the psychology of losing and being defeated, noone goes into anything wanting that to be the end result. Take the time to lick your wounds, go through the healing process and/or grieving process, etc...But once you're done with that let's move on and forward.

The amount and type of emails, instant messages, and texts I received on election night after it was clear that Obama was going to be our 44th president was alarming. Alarming in that the main context in most of them was that we are going to a very bad place because of the turn out of the election. Here are a few examples: "USA is doomed," "I'm moving to another country, Australia is sounding really good right now," "Great, I get to work hard and have some slacker reap the benefits," "We should be very, very scared for our national security....Al Qaeda are coming!!," and this one threw me for a loop "This is a sad day in American Politics." What I can say as my initial response is WOW! But my more elaborate response is that I am really very sorry that you truly feel that way. But I do want to thank my Uncle and KFV for their much more positive responses.

However, as a Rebublican deciding to finally vote for Obama I did do my research. Both Obama and McCain are great men. Whether you picked either candidate, we can't deny that attribute in them. I was disappointed in the people that were in McCain's camp that 'boo'd" and said "no way" during McCain's speech but I applauded John McCain for telling them to stop. And I was glad to see the McCain that I had once supported show up again during his speech and that he's willing to work with Obama to bring our nation back to where it should be.

A lot of the big issues like the Economy and Foreign Policy, I believe need to be handled in a bipartisan fashion. I don't believe that only ONE party has all the answers. Obama promises to work with the Republican party to try to collectively come up with solutions. And I want to believe in that....

So whether your guy won or not on election night, we need to hold our new President accountable. We also need to understand that he's not coming into an easy job (honestly I felt bad for whoever was going to be our new President) and that he is asking for OUR help. Eventhough, he may not have been your candidate of choice...Obama is still going to be your president. And we need to hold ourselves accountable for knowing what's going on with our country and that our leaders that were chosen are doing their job. It's not enough nowadays to just vote and say that "my voice was heard" and the next time it is heard is 4 years from now.

Let's show the world that THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA is still a force to be reckoned with and that we are still the Greatest Nation in the World!!!

$6.66

$6.66. This was the amount of my first purchase of today. As the young man that was my cashier registered my look of worry when he announced my total, he tells me in a bright tone "It's only a number." It's only a number to non-superstitious people and unfortunately for me I don't belong in that group. However, I try to keep positive and keep saying over and over in my head his proclamation, "it's only a number"..."it's only a number...." Trying to believe in that whole "mind over matter" mumbo jumbo.

So I leave the store and go on with my day. Did I mention it was Monday? And did I mention that it was also the start of my midterm week? Knowing I had this already going for me, the voice in my head was practically yelling "it's only a number!!" I'm really trying to believe in the mumbo jumbo. However, my faith wears thin as the day goes on. I receive a couple of emails from different people with upsetting or bad news as the main content. Then as I am studying in the library on campus for my upcoming horrific mid term that I was going to be taking in a few hours, my face feels like I just got an instant sunburn. So I go to the bathroom to see what's going on and my face is as red as a glaring stoplight!! No rhyme or reason for it and it finally calmed down a bit on its own.

By the way, I am still trying to voice the mantra of the day in my head....

Then on to my mid term....remember the horrific one? Yep, it didn't disappoint me or the rest of my classmates. Hours of studying miserably to sit and take an exam for 3 hours that after the first hour I realize I will never get those hours back and I could have at least used them for happier endeavors. We are all hoping on a curve....a really big curve!!

Finally, I think my day is over and I can just go home and have a much needed drink and unwind but noooo....that would be way too much to ask for since it is quite obvious my day was already predestined to be a bad day. I get not one but THREE phone calls from friends that I have not heard from in forever all with bad news!!

$6.66..."it's only a number" or is it???

R.I.P. George Carlin

“The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A Death! What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating...


...and you finish off as an orgasm.”

George Carlin

The Invitation By Oriah Mountain Dreamer

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for,
and if you dare to dream of meeting your hearts longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love,
for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched the center of you own sorrow,
if you have been opened by life's betrayals
or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain!
I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own,
without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with JOY, mine or your own;
if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of
your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or
to remember the limitations of being a human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you're telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself;
if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.
I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty every day,
and if you can source your life from ITS presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine,
and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full
moon, "YES!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair,
weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children.
It doesn't interest me who you are, how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself,
and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

Simply Happy...

So I woke up this morning with this surreal-like happy feeling. The surreality (not sure if that's word or just a Rose-ism) of it was because there was no rhyme or reason for it. Nothing spectacular has happened in my world as of recently...I just woke up happy and on a Monday morning at that! It was a wondrous feeling to wake up with, I have to admit though. I kept trying to figure out why I was so happy for apparently no reason and then I just stopped. I just stopped trying to make sense of this overall great feeling and I just went with it. I had a great day but ask me if anything great happened today and I would have to say no but it was a great day nonetheless. I was just simply happy...
Happy to be going to work in a place where I've been able to make some positive changes and I'm appreciated for...Happy to be waking up in paradise when even on your worst day, a person just needs to take in the beauty of this island that surrounds them and realize that life isn't so bad after all...Happy to have some of the greatest people I have ever met in my life and call them "friend"...Happy to have such a supportive, loving, and crazy family...Happy that I am loved by many and that I am able to love so many in return...Happy about who I am as a person and how in this neverending changing thing we call life, I keep learning and growing with it...Happy to be alive....
I woke up this morning just simply happy....

Giving up Negativity up for Lent

Every year for Lent I give up a material thing and a personal thing. This year it's chips and Negativity. For the people that know me best, know that giving up chips is not easy for me. Especially since it's my study staple. However, I'm holding strong and I have even been to Mexican restaurants in the last few weeks and have had a few exams. Yes, I am patting myself on the back as I type. Ha ha
However, this grand idea of giving up Negativity has been a real test. I am a pretty positive person for the most part but being positive ALL the time is a hard task to take upon. I am not going to go into it right now because that would be me being negative and I only need to hold out for a little longer. Then I will spill the beans on what I have learned during this time of sacrifice. I will say this though...It is getting harder and harder to find a reason to smile these days so when you do find a reason, no matter how trivial it may seem, just take advantage of the moment and smile! Because you never know, you might just make someone else's day by doing such a "trivial" thing as smiling ; )

Medicine Head Thoughts

I have been home sick all day. I have been sick for about a month in all fairness but I finally took a day out to rest. So my hamster wheel came to a halt and was able to do some thinking for a bit. Then I stopped because my thoughts were getting a little overwhelming. Haha. So I decided to put down some quotes that I found that I really liked.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciated them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. Marilyn Monroe

Fall in love or fall in hate. Get inspired or be depressed. Ace a test or flunk a class. Make babies or make art. Speak the truth or lie and cheat. Dance on tables or sit in the corner. Life is divine chaos. Embrace it. Forgive yourself. Breathe. And enjoy the ride...Solbeam

You only have one life to live so live it to the max. Don't worry about getting hurt. It's a risk you have to take to find the ONE that won't hurt you. Don't worry about what other people think about you as long as your happy with yourself. What other people think doesn't matter. Most of all enjoy every minute and live each second like it's your last and if you love someone, tell them because you might not get another chance...Author Unknown

If you look inside a girl's heart, you would see how much she really cries. You'll find secrets hidden, best friends, and lies. But what you'll see the most is how hard it really is to stay strong when nothing is ever right and everything is always wrong...Author Unknown

I have others but it's time for another dose of codeine laced meds and then I become too loopy to think much of anything. Pneumonia sucks. Hope all is well with all.

Love and kisses,
Me

Observations

A few weeks ago I was out with a friend of mine and we were just hanging out for the day and catching up on each other's lives. So we were having some lunch and a few cocktails and just enjoying the day when he just looks at me and says in all seriousness that he needs to tell me something. Of course this strikes fear in my heart that it is something horrible but it what he had to say was definitely not what I was expecting at all. He proceeded to tell me his observations of me since he's known me but in a way that had me somewhat dumbfounded. This is what he told me about me....

Do you know that when you think no one is looking you have a shadow of sadness that comes across your eyes. It's a brief shadow because it's rare that you're not smiling especially when you're with your loved ones. And you have a smile that's contagious and genuine and it is one of your trademarks but I don't think you realize how beautiful of a person you really are. And maybe that's what makes you even more beautiful, the innocence you have about yourself. You have a beautiful soul that everyone around you wants to be a part of. You're "that girl"...the one all guys want to take home to meet the parents after having an amazing blowout weekend with you. I say all this to you because you deserve to know what an amazing beautiful person you are and to see sadness in your eyes for whatever reason breaks the hearts of the ones that love you.

Then he was done and I didn't have anything as a response except for a simple "Thank you."
It was a great day with a great friend whom I thankful to have in my life. He made me realize how our loved ones are the people who validate us. It's not our bosses, not our enemies, not our careers but the people that love you enough to not ever want to see sadness in your eyes.