There are moments that I reflect on and have to say " life is not so bad after all." I am glad I have those moments because it balances out those moments where I just have to say "damn, what the hell did I do to deserve this?" I am blessed for the people I have in my life. I truly am. I have come to terms with the dysfunctioning aspects of my family but who doesn't have dysfunctional aspects in their family? They are not perfect but they are as close to perfect as I would want them to be. Noone is perfect so why would anyone expect to have a large group of people to be perfect functioning together? That is not human nature. My friends are also great but not perfect. I wouldn't want anyone that is part of my life or inner circle to be any different than they are. You want to know why? Well, if you don't really want to know why I could really care less because I am going to say why anyway! The reason why is this; everyone has their own unique characteristics or personality that they bring to the table and each person that is within my inner circle has taught me, in their own little ways, a lot about me. This may be a little on the deep side but I have had a little to drink tonight and you know how that goes ; - )
We all have something about ourselves to share with others. It could be book or street knowledge, life experiences, or anything....but we all have something to share. Sometimes it could be just as simple as saying "hello" or just asking how someone's day is could make someone else's day, month, or year! It's really that simple. Trust, I used to never be so sensitive or "Mother Theresa-like" but it sure beats being a cynical hard ass any day! Life is just not that hard that we don't make it so....
I digress....I want to pay a tribute to my roommates. They are the best guys I know. The both of them. They are my ying and yang right now. I would literally "bury a dead body" for them, no questions asked. I don't care what people say about them ; - ) They are just "GOOD" people all the way around. I LOVE YOU GUYS ; - )
No worries, people....To everyone else in my inner circle-You all have a special unique spot in my heart! Don't you forget that ; - )
Love and kisses,
Rosebud
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Thursday, April 21, 2005
I am a danger to myself....
Yes, that's right...I have somewhat known for quite awhile but I now totally convinced I am a danger to myself. I don't have to worry about anyone else being a danger to me because I will almost more likely do more damage to myself than anyone else can inflict on me. I am writing this while having a sprained ankle, a banged up knee, and a corneal eye infection. Now, the cause of the corneal eye infection is still a mystery but a lot of ailments I have had since I have moved to Hawaii are mysteries. Or that's what the doctors here keep telling me. I personally think that they are all just blowing smoke up my ass but hey I'm not a doctor! I refused to go to the doctor for the sprained ankle because I was worried that they might say that they may have to amputate it or something off the wall like that. The doctors here are a little strange to say the least. So I had my good friend (she's a PA in sports medicine) come over to assure me that I did not break it because this sprain was a little more painful than my other past 8 ankle sprains. Now, I am self aware that I am not the most coordinated person in the world but this is now becoming a major issue. So far in my lifetime I have broken both my arms, a finger, sprained my ankles 9 times, pulled out my back a few times, and let' s not start on my battle scars that I have obtained from fighting with inanimate objects and losing! And most of these injuries have a funny story behind them and some I do blame the Captain, Jack, and Jim for being cohorts in my demise. These newest injuries occurred last Friday night. Now, when people ask what happened and I start telling them when it happened, the first question I get is "were you drunk?" For the record, I was coming home from a local bar but I was not drunk. I had a happy buzz but not drunk. Unfortunately, I decided to get into a fight with the sidewalk and the outcome of that battle did not come out in my favor. So maybe it is a sign that drinking, walking, and inanimate objects in my world should not be combined! I think I would be the safest just not going out at all. However, I have had accidents happen in the home also and they did not include any alcohol. So I guess I am just doomed either way!
What's a girl to do? Well, this one will just add another injury earned to her already long list and stick a bright sign on her that says "Danger" and just keep rolling!
Love and Kisses,
Rosebud
What's a girl to do? Well, this one will just add another injury earned to her already long list and stick a bright sign on her that says "Danger" and just keep rolling!
Love and Kisses,
Rosebud
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Some amusing sidenotes...
I have to say that living in Hawaii does have some disadvantages. For example, more flesh shown in public that should really be kept for private viewing only. You know what I am talking about. The older lady that for some reason thinks that showing her rolls that gravity and age have put their special mark on is something that should proudly be displayed in public. I know that it might be a disturbing mental image but trust me..it's more disturbing to come across it in person!
I also would like to add my personal marketing ideas for the "Amazing Maui Babe Browning Lotion." It should aptly be renamed the "Amazing Burn Bitch Burn Lotion." If you are brave enough to use it after my consumer report on the product, PLEASE read the directions first. Also you must coat yourself with a healthy layer of the highest SPF sunscreen available before applying this stuff. I personally used this by recommendation by my dear friend, Mike. He swears that he told me the precautionary requirements about this product but he also knows that I am lucky to remember what I did yesterday let alone a conversation a few months back! I think he must have been mad at me for something because I am still dealing with the horrible side effects of this product if not used correctly. I went to the beach about 2 weeks ago for about 2 hours with this stuff slathered on. Well, I am still recuperating from the results of that outing. I might as well just slathered on some Crisco and went out there. My skin was still cooking literally 2 days later. My poor roommate had to help me with trying to cool my skin down for about a week. Aloe Vera with Lidocaine is a godsend! However, I still was not able to stop the peeling process that would of course start with my face. I looked like someone smeared neopolitan ice cream all over my face...Yes it was quite attractive ; ) And now 2 weeks later, I am peeling like a snake sheds their skin from the upper extremities of my body! It is some evil stuff and I hope everyone learns from my mistake ; )
There was also the "novice" hike turned into "death defying" hike that ended up with being locked into private property and then almost having a head on collision with a cracked out crazy local redneck that I don't think had much more of a vocabulary past the obvious curse words! I think the next hike I will take I will make sure that its one that others have been on. It is not a pasttime that I want to travel the "road less traveled."
Well, that's what has been going on in my neck of the woods here. It's always an adventure ; ) I hope all is well with everyone...As always, love and kisses.
Rosebud
I also would like to add my personal marketing ideas for the "Amazing Maui Babe Browning Lotion." It should aptly be renamed the "Amazing Burn Bitch Burn Lotion." If you are brave enough to use it after my consumer report on the product, PLEASE read the directions first. Also you must coat yourself with a healthy layer of the highest SPF sunscreen available before applying this stuff. I personally used this by recommendation by my dear friend, Mike. He swears that he told me the precautionary requirements about this product but he also knows that I am lucky to remember what I did yesterday let alone a conversation a few months back! I think he must have been mad at me for something because I am still dealing with the horrible side effects of this product if not used correctly. I went to the beach about 2 weeks ago for about 2 hours with this stuff slathered on. Well, I am still recuperating from the results of that outing. I might as well just slathered on some Crisco and went out there. My skin was still cooking literally 2 days later. My poor roommate had to help me with trying to cool my skin down for about a week. Aloe Vera with Lidocaine is a godsend! However, I still was not able to stop the peeling process that would of course start with my face. I looked like someone smeared neopolitan ice cream all over my face...Yes it was quite attractive ; ) And now 2 weeks later, I am peeling like a snake sheds their skin from the upper extremities of my body! It is some evil stuff and I hope everyone learns from my mistake ; )
There was also the "novice" hike turned into "death defying" hike that ended up with being locked into private property and then almost having a head on collision with a cracked out crazy local redneck that I don't think had much more of a vocabulary past the obvious curse words! I think the next hike I will take I will make sure that its one that others have been on. It is not a pasttime that I want to travel the "road less traveled."
Well, that's what has been going on in my neck of the woods here. It's always an adventure ; ) I hope all is well with everyone...As always, love and kisses.
Rosebud
Saturday, April 02, 2005
An Insomniac's Babbling
Alright, it's after midnight on a Friday and I can't sleep. No...it's not because I drank too much or I'm up to no good and having a good time doing it. Right at this moment though, they don't sound like bad excuses for being up past midnight on a Friday. Oh, the good ole days. How I miss them so! When the weekend started on a Thursday night and carried through to Sunday. Let's not forget happy/therapy hour Monday through Wednesday; )
Now I spend my weeknights and even most of my weekend nights at home trying to be studious and do the good girl routine. I know it sounds pretty pathetic and it pretty much is. I have been catching up on all the TV that I missed during my socially busy decade. I have to tell you...I didn't miss out on much but I have to say I see the cathartic experience that watching TV can bring to people. It's the whole "zoning" out thing. It's almost zen-like, especially when you are becoming one with the couch. LOL
I digress to my new homebody phase....It's not completely pathetic and maybe in a way a little therapeutic. In the past I have always been the one on the go, go, go. I always put a lot of stuff on my social plate and was never home, wherever that was for the month (during my nomadic 2 year existence). I literally lived out of my car. I easily clocked 75 to 100 miles on my car a day which was always in a 20 mile radius. I used to feel like I wasn't doing enough things and I was restless when I first came to Hawaii. Now, I don't have that feeling as much. I think the way laidback island lifestyle is starting to absorb and I'm okay with it. Remind me why I felt that I had to be so ambitious before and run around like a chicken with her head cut off? I am still trying to remember the reason(s) but its becoming more vague the more time I am here; )
I have to say that the change in me has been good. I am much calmer and peaceful now. I vaguely remember what major life drama is. I am more focused and more self aware. It was hard to find who I was under the fog of whatever poison I chose for that particular day. I am not walking around like the tin man in the Wizard of Oz without a heart anymore. It's refreshing in many ways to realize that underneath all my cynicism, pain, and distrust that there's a person that still believes in the good of people and love. And that my dear ones is priceless : )
I think I am done with my mushy, groggy blog for the evening and try to read some more. Hopefully, I will nod off soon or I might have to keep blogging about nonsensical emotional bullshit again ; )
Love and Kisses,
Rosebud
Now I spend my weeknights and even most of my weekend nights at home trying to be studious and do the good girl routine. I know it sounds pretty pathetic and it pretty much is. I have been catching up on all the TV that I missed during my socially busy decade. I have to tell you...I didn't miss out on much but I have to say I see the cathartic experience that watching TV can bring to people. It's the whole "zoning" out thing. It's almost zen-like, especially when you are becoming one with the couch. LOL
I digress to my new homebody phase....It's not completely pathetic and maybe in a way a little therapeutic. In the past I have always been the one on the go, go, go. I always put a lot of stuff on my social plate and was never home, wherever that was for the month (during my nomadic 2 year existence). I literally lived out of my car. I easily clocked 75 to 100 miles on my car a day which was always in a 20 mile radius. I used to feel like I wasn't doing enough things and I was restless when I first came to Hawaii. Now, I don't have that feeling as much. I think the way laidback island lifestyle is starting to absorb and I'm okay with it. Remind me why I felt that I had to be so ambitious before and run around like a chicken with her head cut off? I am still trying to remember the reason(s) but its becoming more vague the more time I am here; )
I have to say that the change in me has been good. I am much calmer and peaceful now. I vaguely remember what major life drama is. I am more focused and more self aware. It was hard to find who I was under the fog of whatever poison I chose for that particular day. I am not walking around like the tin man in the Wizard of Oz without a heart anymore. It's refreshing in many ways to realize that underneath all my cynicism, pain, and distrust that there's a person that still believes in the good of people and love. And that my dear ones is priceless : )
I think I am done with my mushy, groggy blog for the evening and try to read some more. Hopefully, I will nod off soon or I might have to keep blogging about nonsensical emotional bullshit again ; )
Love and Kisses,
Rosebud
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