Table for Pity Party of One....

That's right...I am throwing a pity party and only a selected few have been invited-me, myself, and I. Now, I know what you're thinking..."what could she be feeling pitiful about?" Well, it's more about the feeling and not about the cause(s). I know I really don't have anything to complain about in my life and looking at the whole picture, I can't complain at all. I have people that love me. I have my health, if you don't count all my self induced bruises, sprains, breaks, and other accidents. I have a job. I have pretty comfortable living conditions. I am going to school. Yada, yada, yada.
I guess I have been doing too much sober reflection the past 2 weeks. I am not too sure if it's the "sober" part or the "reflecting" part that is the problem. Maybe putting the both together is not the best combination for me. Hmmm...I think I need to stop doing one of them so I can get out of this pity party of mine.
I know I am being a little hard on myself for feeling bad about the way I have been feeling lately but I am my own worst critic. Supposedly, it's okay to feel down and out every once in awhile. At least, that's what I hear.
The great thing about having your own blog is that you can ramble on and on about anything or nothing at all. For example, this post is mainly diarrhea of the brain put into words that I could care less if anyone understood it or not.
Pity Party of One is now leaving the building ; - )

Mahalo!!

Back to Hawaii

Well, I am back in the Pacific. I think my jaunts to the East Coast are done for the time being. I was glad that I was able to see most of my family and friends during my visits to New Jersey and Virginia Beach. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't have been able to do either. I am grateful for that and it warms my heart that I am missed and loved enough for them to bring me back.
I would go into detail about my trip to VB but I am a little tired so I will just tell you what I learned. I was apprehensive about going because of the "ghosts" analogy I had. I did put most of them to rest and that is truly a weight off my shoulders. I learned that I really did not run from anything or anyone, I just moved on. I also learned that I am truly happy where I am at in my life. I have no regrets for the decisions that I have made in the last 2 1/2 years. However, I do realize that my decisions did in turn affect some of my loved ones and for this I am sorry.
I have to say though that the biggest lesson I learned was that no matter where I am at or what I am doing, I am loved. And for this reason, I realize why I am okay with being single. I was starting to think that maybe that there was really something wrong with me because I haven't caught the relationshipitis bug. I guess I just have a really strong immunity to it but I do know that there is a supervirus out there that will inevitably get me! However, until then I might as well enjoy and live a healthy relationship free life ; - )
As Always...

Love and kisses,
Rosebud

P.S. To those of you who (you know who you are) keep wondering about my MOJO or my "secret." I truly do not have an answer and I promise I am not into witchcraft either!!!!